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This content was posted on 7 Feb 23 by Daniel Thorson on Twitter
But also in the wake of this seeing were many days of profound confusion, helplessness …
But also in the wake of this seeing were many days of profound confusion, helplessness & fear including the terror of going insane.
It’s as if the belief that I needed understanding was protecting me from encountering all this pain.
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