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Posts tagged with: dysphoria
By: The Posts Author | Posted on: 21 Jul 22
It has been over a year since my son desisted from his belief that he was “trans,” but I still think about this every day. It’s probably disrespectful to compare this experience to having a child go through a cancer treatment, but that’s the closest comparison I can think of. For two years now, since the day he first announced he thought he was trans, I have searched daily for any minute clues that might reveal his health and his mind frame. What did that comment mean? What happened to that friendship? Is that moodiness significant—or is he just tired …
It has been over a year since my son desisted from his belief that he was “trans,” but I still think about this every day. It’s probably disrespectful to compare this experience to having a child go through a cancer treatment, but that’s the closest comparison I can think of. For two years now, since the day he first announced …